Spirit Box

Sometimes life seems so unfair
It’s like walking on a sheet of hair

Sometimes life seems so cruel
So cruel that I can’t see the truth

But however it is and whatever it is
I don’t want to miss this
I don’t want to skip this

Every single thing in life
is every single breath I take
Every precious line than anything in this earth

They are steps of fortune
I plan it! and God decide it..
I pray and God will listen..
I hope and God is the Almighty..

I wanna be there when she’s crying
I wanna be there when he’s growing up
I wanna be there when they’re laughing

I don’t wanna lose every single moment in life
which is good or bad…they’re the same…
There’ll be no goodness if there’s no badness

Yin and Yang

I live with what I am now
I’m enjoying this…
Trying will all efforts to touch the skies and dreams
Break on thru to the other side of X: infinite

Tears are falling down
On your cheek and you’re alone
Sitting under the trees
Bending your knees

Telah habis semua cerita
cinta antara kau dengannya

I can’t stand the pain
No, I can’t hold it again
It’s been a long time ago
And now I know

Cinta tak harus memiliki
Cintaku ada di dalam hati ini

I would come to you
But I just can’t come true
You’re just too good for me
And let your love choose me

One day..

Rainbow comes after rain
Let the rainbow brighten your day
Don’t spend your time in vain
Pick a color and move away

Aku kan di sini selalu menanti
kehadiranmu yang mengisi hidupku ini

Like I’ve ever told you

Cinta tak harus memiliki
Cintaku ada di dalam hati ini…

[:-)]

It’s easy to think of you
It’s easy to remember everything about you
But it’s hard to release you…

I’ve spent so much time
Loving a girl that never be mine…

I closed my eyes
and wonder where you are now…
I’d tried to call but I just didn’t know how..

I couldn’t believe you’re gone
I couldn’t believe you’re gone
I really miss you so

The wind will keep blowing
The sun will keep shining
And I’ll keep waiting…till there’s no tomorrow
till the stars fall from the sky…

It was easy to think of you
It was easy to remember everything about you
But still, it is hard to release you…

It makes me sad…
But I’m proud…to have this eternal love…

Time has changed
Here I am and still the same
Watching you
Wishing you were here
And I’m waiting…

Dreaming of you…
is the best part of my life
Your smile…
Guides me while I’m sleeping
Your voice…
Leads me while I’m awake

But now I have to face the truth
We never be together
I’m moving with my own
And now you’re moving with your own

So glad to see you happy
I have to stop dreaming of you…
Though you know I don’t want to
Well, I guess I won’t
Coz you’re the best dream I’ve ever had

It’s just between you and heaven…

c’est la vie

PS: I love the way you stared at me that day in Meccasuite Arabian’s Sky

It’s a cloudy day on August, I’m remembering…
…It was on 1999, May..
…..It was rainy, cinema, “Payback”
…..Black shirt and uniform, first meet
…..Holding hands, Devon Sawa
…I made a statement
…I poured out all my feeling
…For the first time
…Loving you was the greatest thing ever!

…During 1999..
…..a pin, Batman
…..T-Shirt and wristlet from Irian
…..Soap in the box, Flower soap
…..And my white rose
…..Love was all around
…And our first anniv on 2000
…Till the day we went to a bank, a money-changer

I’m still remembering…
…the last night at your house
…was the last time I kissed you
…at the airport
(I can’t continue this..)

Until now…
I’m still remembering…

Your fragrance…
Is all around..
Whenever and wherever I am..

The fragrance…
Fills the day with hope..
No matter what I am..

The different feeling I feel
Everytime I smell this brazil..
It’s just between you and heaven…

Flyin high to the skies…
It’s just between you and heaven…

You always come with a surprise..
You’re unpredictable…
I never thought it was really you (I’m glad)..

But this Brazil Nut is always here..
..fills the emptiness..
..fills the missing..

What am I without you?…

-Thx

I spend my time sitting on the chair with a hope
Thinking a thing that I can’t imagine
Living a life that I can’t leave behind
Without you

I sail my pray on a ship of hope today
Crying on the day when you went away
The thing I can’t imagine
Without you

I’ll dance in the darkness
In an empty room, alone
Writing a letter that never be sent
I never thought you’re gone

The best thing in my life is being with you
We’re happy and so young..
And the worst thing in my life was..
..when I woke up in the morning..
..and then I realized you’re not here anymore..

We don’t know how it’s gonna be
If we could turn back time
And let time be ours…

Sing a song we used to sing
Under a glass moon
I’ll wear your wedding ring
Beneath a tree of hope, tree of life
A memory remains..

The thing I can’t imagine
If imagining it without you..

(Keyword: tulip, peach, soto, puding, bihun goreng, pocky, YM, MSN, painting, notepad, crazy, beautiful, simple, lovely, so many things about you…hehehe…)

The art of losing isn’t hard to master;
so many things seem filled with the intent
to be lost that their loss is no disaster.
Lose something every day.
Accept the fluster of lost door keys, the hour badly spent.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

Then practice losing farther, losing faster:
places, and names, and where it was you meant to travel.
None of these will bring disaster.

I lost my mother’s watch.
And look! my last, or next-to-last, of three loved houses went.
The art of losing isn’t hard to master.

I lost two cities, lovely ones.
And, vaster, some realms I owned, two rivers, a continent.
I miss them, but it wasn’t a disaster.

—Even losing you (the joking voice, a gesture I love) I shan’t have lied.
It’s evident the art of losing’s not too hard to master
though it may look like (Write it!) like disaster.

>> one of my favs, Elizabeth Bishop

Here I am, God
Have You forgot about me?

Though I’m just a dot in this world
I know You won’t forget about me

I’m so afraid
I’ve done too many mistakes
I had ignored You for too long
And now I’m here regreting all

Do You still love me?
Will You accept my apologize?

God, I’m so afraid

My Almighty..

What should I do?
Give me a clue…

-human-

Waktu itu kulihat semuanya tampak jelas…
tapi jelas menurutku yang mungkin menurut orang lain itu buram…

Aku tak tahu siapa yang harus aku ikuti
semuanya terasa salah dan tidak terarah
sehingga aku selalu menjadi yang bersalah

Aku tak tahu kapan aku akan benar
Tak tahu pula apakah itu benar atau salah
Mereka selalu menyalahkanku, mungkin karena aku terlalu bodoh
aku terlalu baik dan aku terlalu jujur
aku terlalu percaya…..

Mereka memanfaatkan kepercayaan yang kuberikan
kepercayaan yang sangat mahal harganya
kuberikan cuma-cuma dan mereka pun senang…

Layaknya uang, mereka akan menghamburkannya sampai habis
tak peduli bagaimana mereka mendapatkannya
Hanya orang-orang tertentu yang akan menabung uang itu untuk masa depannya
dan aku pernah bertemu dengan orang yang seperti itu
dan sangat sedikit sekali…sangat jarang sekali…
Dan kemudian aku tak ada harganya lagi
aku tidak dihargai dan tidak dihormati…
aku dilecehkan…..setelah mereka berdiri dari kursi yang kusediakan untuk mereka
…..setelah mereka pergi dari meja yang ku jadikan satu dengan mejaku
…..setelah semuanya berakhir

….datanglah orang baru…
….dan begitu seterusnya sampai nanti…

Dan aku pun sendiri lagi…

The sky is maybe you..
The sun is shining so bright
This beautiful day with you…won’t be forgotten..

The birds are flying…over you and me…
They are singing…they are smiling…
They are trying to fill the silence…

The moon is maybe you…
The angel’s light in the night
I can see that the stars are blinking their eyes…
…that’s a sign from you..

There’s a happiness…knocking my door…
There’s a gladness…warming my soul…
And they come from you…

02092002 – Obj.

I’m tired of these all and I’m so bored with you
Everything I’ve done seem like tragic of blue
Maybe I should stop these all from the very first time

I’ve been hurt and I’ve been played too long
I’m sorry I’m not like what you think that I’m strong
Maybe I should have gone when you’re playing the game

And I don’t know you anymore
No I don’t wanna know you for more
Don’t you ever think that I can give you more

Calling me everyday didn’t mean you like me
All I just wanted you to do was to feel me
But all your feelings were like some shits annoying me

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Another ugly song…but mine! Hahahahha..

It’s a rainy sunday morning
6 o’clock is coming over me
Sun shines like a candle in the night
Rainy day in my trip

Milla says she wants a nice trip
to the place where the flowers bloom
I say “don’t you worry babe”
Coz we’re going to have a long trip

The birds sing and the butterflies fly high
The turtles go out from the shells

Look into this life, what a wonderful surprise
With you ’round around my life
If you went away, I wouldn’t be on this day
Oh this is my long trip with youuu..

This sunday I’m happy with you
I don’t care if it’s a day of blueshines like a candle in the night
Rainy day in my trip

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My song! Hehehe..

Bulan mulai bersinar..
..seiring kehampaan dalam hatiku bergetar..

Berjalan kumenuju kegelapan..
Tak ada tujuan..
Tak ada harapan..
Terus berputar dalam kegelapan malam ini..

Sendiri..
Bahkan bayanganku pun tak tampak di sisiku..
Samar-samar..
Terus berjalan sampai kaki ini sakit..

Ingin kuteteskan air mata ini..
Tapi tak sedikit pun air keluar..
Hanya nafas yang terengah-engah..
..seiring bertumbuhnya kegelisahan ini..

Sekarang aku berlari..
..mencari sebuah kejelasan dari semua ini..
Jantungku berdetak kencang..
sekencang langkah kakiku berlari..

Krikil di jalanan berhasil menjatuhkanku..
..membuat luka kecil di tangan..dan kepalaku..

Aku tetap akan terus berlari..
bosan dengan semuanya..
Aku akan terus terbang..
membisu seperti seekor burung hantu..

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>> Sakura’s Sky, 032002